Think. Believe. Dream.

It's been a LONG time since I've made a new post huh? I can sit here and tell you that life has been busy yadda yadda yadda same old shit just another day.

I promised to update you all about me and my medical condition? issues? I don't know what to call the clusterfuck anymore! I figured what better time than at 1:30 in the morning, with a migraine and having to get up at 5:00 AM to drive 2 hours to a seminar for school! Rad!

Okay, well let's start that I went to see a neurosurgeon in Tampa for the cyst on my pineal gland. He was going to give me his opinion on what to do next. Basically I was told to wait and monitor it some more because the surgery is VERY involved and they don't want to do anything until I start presenting symptoms of hydrocephalus. Which I know UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH central. I don't want to wait until shit hits the fan I want to be proactive. I also wanted to see if the removal would lesson my migraines but I have to follow doctors orders which means more MRI's in my future. He wants me to visit a headache specialist so we'll see where that goes.

The good news is that I finally have recieved diability for my migraines in regards to school. I did that a few semesters back not even believing I could recieve disability services but migraines are a disability under the law SO I am taking what I can get. It is just for leniancy with absences I never know when I will have one and I don't want to be penalized for things that I can't control is the main thing.

I am still writing, I have already finished my spn_summergen story just waiting for it to be posted. Still reading a lot but I recently got back into wrestling (I used to watch it religiously for about 8 years straight and sort of got burnt out around 2010-2011 so I quit before joining the world of online so now everyone on my tumblr has to suffer as I post wrestling shit and I may make you all suffer too! It is definitely something else reading a threesome of hot, sweaty, muscular men gotta say WAAAAAAAAY different than J2 or SPN.)

And I don't know if Kim is cool with me announcing this but me and her MAY or MAY NOT be attending the convention in Jacksonville next year (don't forget I live in Florida broskis!)

And that's about it with me hopefully you all have been doing well and I miss everyone of you dearly. Don't be afraid to send me messages if you want to chat I am normally checking my stuff once daily. love ya!

Hey all, how has life been? Mine's seen better days but other than that I'm okay.

I am doing this project for a class about writing. I am writing a book and however ironic this is at the moment I still wanted to do it.

It is where I am writing about why you should watch supernatural.

This is where I need some assistance. I want some really good meta/commentaries about the show in general from fans. Since I have limited time to search for these (I know I can eventually find them) I figured I would send an APB for some really good meta about supernatural and why its a good show. I would want to include this in my book (mind you this is not a published book this is something I am fixing together. I don't plan to read these either but I wanted to include them in the book to look good)

So if you can link me to any (if its a self-rec thats fine too!) I would appreciate it.

Also since it is a persuassive book I wanted to open it with a random quote from spn that would get people interested, any suggestions?

Title: 6 Inch Valley
Artist: yuriookino
Art: Here
Genre/Pairing: SPN, GEN
Rating: PG-13
Author's Note: This was written for spn_reversebang challenge. I had the opportunity to work with an amazing artist, yuriookino, and write something for a stunning piece of work. Please head over to the link provided and view her amazing artwork and leave her some appreciation. We didn't stay in contact a lot mostly because I was way too busy with school but I'm happy at the result of our collaboration. This is set between Season 8-10 (to be honest I don't remember when I set this fic but I known it was Season 8 and after).

Summary: Sam and Dean are trapped in a creveasse, trying to fight injuries and hypothermia to stay alive. Sam is confronted by an old enemy who begins to play tricks on Sam's mental health, while Dean fights to keep his brother alive and remain sane himself.


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Tomorrow is the big day when I graduate with my AA degree!



Which is the reason why I haven't posted any reviews for the last few episodes. I've been extremely busy preparing for that, and I work fulltime and I attempt to have a social life so my life has been quite chaotic as of late. mylifewithin is coming today to watch me graduate \0/ I'll be picking her up later tonight.

Fandom wise I've been busy with the spn_j2_xmas fic and my spn_reversebang as well as filling things for insmallpackages (which there is a lot left unfilled so I encourage anyone to hop on over and fill some wishes!) My Christmas cards will be late this year, unfortunately I haven't got any money for stamps which I need to send out all the cards so I have to wait until my next payday and even then I am unsure I will be able to get them due to having to Christmas shop still but I will try my hardest if anything you'll recieve them in January so hopefully you won't be too mad at my belated Christmas presents.

The next episode however I will be writing a review for! And hopefully I can maybe make more time to write, and read some fanfiction and post more online. I feel like I rarely post at all anymore.

I had a good Thanksgiving and I hope everyone else did (who celebrates it) did as well! I've been so far behind on reviews (which I apologize) however I am set to graduate Dec. 16th with an AA degree and I'm still working full time so that's taking a lot of my time at the moment.

I've been rushing to write for the spn_j2_xmas and the spn_reversebang my xmas fic is basically done I just have to sit and write the ending and get it beta'd the reverse bang however...I have a lot of ideas but time to write! argggh it's so annoying but I'm confident I'll have it done in time.

Yeah yeah I said it. It's been a long time since I made a personal post or basically an excited post about things so here it is.

Lot's of cool things going on recently like:



or


That's cool right?!?!?!

I have my artist for the spn_reversebang and it just so happens to be imogen_lily. I am really excited about that! And my fic for the spn_j2_xmas exchange is coming along quite nicely as well. I'm really hoping I can get back into writing a lot more.

I know I've been procrastinating on my review for the last episode (might type it now since I have time) but I promise I'll have it up before our mini hiatus is up, deal?

How have you guys been?

Long time no see, eh? I've been slowly trying to get back into the fandom business with reading fic and looking at art and watching fanvids. It's a bit tiresome to throw yourself into it when you've been out for so long!

I just wanted to stop by and sort of make a post about fandom in general, new things on on and what not.

Ooh like this:



Done by alexisjane! I know I'm being mean but I want you to go over to her journal to look/comment. It's really quite stunning and did I say fucking HOT. (*wink wink* it's my favorite position for Sam and Jared) I'm might be just this side of insane to put it as my background on my laptop.

Fic! We can't leave out fic, here are some new things I've read and saved because I really love them:

Red by themegalosaurus
Summary: While filming for the scene in Season 10 where Sam hurts his shoulder, Jared's real-life injury causes problems.

They're are also on tumblr for anyone interested (same name, they might be on LJ too I just haven't checked). A hurt!Sam girl like me flaunted over Jared's real life injury (you know I'm unbelievably cruel like that ;)

This Illusion We've Become by brokenhighways
Summary: Even though he's been living with the prestigious Morgan family for years, Jared Padalecki has always been the outcast, save for the relationship he has with Diane Morgan, the eldest child and heir. When she's murdered brutally, Jared's forced to face up to the fact that he's on his own, while trying to solve the murder with his best friend Chad and his associate, Jensen Ackles, a medium who's able to see spirits. In the midst of that, he has to deal with being suspected of murder, being further ostracised by the Morgan family, his company being robbed, hunting down his birth parents and his tumultuous relationship with Jensen, as well the danger that continues to lie ahead. Meanwhile, Jensen’s forced to deal with the fact that he’s in love with Jared and is the only one who can communicate with Diane and help solve her murder.

Have I ever told you guys how friggin aaaaaaaamazing a writer they are? Because if I haven't, here's a clue! I've read all their big bangs and let me tell you...so fucking awesome. So much story, plot, suspense, angst! Basically everything a juicy novel has with interesting, flawed characters, and so unlike any other author I've read before. I would seriously consider giving their fics a read if you haven't. Friggin incredible.



I haven't watched any vids in quite some time but I'm trying to get back into the groove, got any amazing fanvids you want to rec?



It's coming, are you ready?

Title: What Are Friends For?
Genre: RPF, Gen
Rating: G
Word Count: 400
Warnings: SPOILERS for the finale
Author's Note: I really wanted to see Jensen comforting a hysterical Jared. I mean look at the poor baby, he poured his heart out I'm sure that was hard to come down from.

Summary: Jensen helps Jared calm down after shooting Dean's death scene.


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I just participated in tebtosca's voice meme!

Please forgive my voice because I am sick currently.



If you want to participate you can head on over and read over the questions here.