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Summary:

Basically I am a Supernatural & Numb3rs junkie. I like making new friends and talking to new people. Don't let this post intimidate you, I'm really easy going and laid back. Practically everything of mine is open only my personal posts will be friends lock. Feel free to say hi and enjoy!

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cherry916: ([Sam'n'Dean] concern)
*insert corny supernatural joke here*

Hello peeps! Just wanted to hop on and wish everyone a Happy Easter weekend.

I also wanted to address the new LJ ToS thing since I've gotten some questions regarding it.

I'm staying on LJ. Just so you all are aware. I already have a dreamwidth and an A03. The goal is to move all of my stories to A03 just because I like their service better for hosting stories and such. I am in the process of moving my delicious account to pinboard as we speak. I would also encourage others to migrate stories to A03 as well. However, I am still on LJ and will likely ride the sinking ship down! No worries. The PDF library will still operate as normal just as everything else of mine. You can catch me at cherry916@dreamwidth or cherry619@A03

The new pinboard will be cherry619@pinboard and I am currently migrating all of my bookmarks (and re-tagging some!) to pinboard instead of delicious so if you have not done so already I highly encourage you to follow the pinboard instead of delicious. And as always I am cherry619@tumblr posting more wrestling now a days then supernatural but I'm still trucking along!

I apologize for not updating this more often. Lately life hasn't been too kind for me but one thing I will say or actually two things is that 1) I GOT A NEW CAR \0/ 2) I finally got in to see a therapist for the anxiety and depression so I think hopefully I can better manage everything. 
cherry916: ([Wrestling] Smile)
Hey guys just wanted to give you all a head ups of what I am going to be doing (undertaking really) in the next few weeks (maybe a month or so). I am currently moving my bookmarks from delicious to pinboard. For a number of reasons but mainly because delicious is basically a ghost site now. They don't care about it anymore, no updates are being given and the last correspondance from delicious was in April 2016. I know my delicious is sort of a hub for a lot of people. [livejournal.com profile] spn_littlebro has recently moved to pinboard as well and it's more reliable than delicious for a small fee of 11 dollars which I can easily manage.

However, in awesome fashion delicious has shut down their export and import features so all 141 pages of my bookmarks must be moved over manually. I've convinved myself this is better so that I can weed out dead or broken links, re-tag much better or maybe add tags and organize more efficiently not only for those who use my bookmarks but for me as well. I'm an organized person. I may also be adding more PDF's in the near future after basically going over all my bookmarks and such so stay tuned for this huge transition.

I'll have a huge reveal when it's done and maybe do some sort of PDF requesting thing or something.

It's sort of the first big project I'm taking that relates to fandom and I'm sort of nervous about it since I've been away from reading fanfiction in general but I'm also excited to have something to focus on and do in light of my recent bout of depression.

I'll still save items to delicious as well just to maintain it but I encourage any who have followed my delicious to follow my pinboard: https://pinboard.in/u:cherry619

As that will be more up to date with newer tags and deleted bookmarks and such. 
cherry916: ([Sam] Captured)
Hey all, I haven't posted here in awhile so I figured I'd make a little update about myself and what I've been up too.

Last time since we all talked I've been to a convention in Jacksonville and a wrestling event in Jacksonville in the same month! I recently purchased a new phone as well, a google pixel, which I'm in love with. I'm finally starting to feel like I'm on the right track with life now like I'm finally becoming an adult (even though logically I've been an adult for awhile now). It's been difficult the past few months with depression for me since my Mom passed away 6 months ago and my Dog died from cancer about 4 months ago. I've been having insane mood swings and my anxiety has been getting crazy out of control recently. I've recently been put on new anti depressant and anxiety medication that seems to work pretty well compared to my old one which is good. I take it everyday and that seems to increase my mood drastically, I've been in a funk where I'm constantly agitated, emotional and quite mean to my boyfriend which isn't fair to him but he gets the brunt of my emotions unfortunately since my Mother passed he's essentially my only one I have left that I sort of bear my heart too.

However, those are depressing thoughts lets talk about some good thoughts? Me and Kim went to SPN Jax and had an amazing time! It was weird hooking up again after so long because we've both grown distant and are both suffering through weird times in our lives so it was a bit awkward but once we got into the swing of things it felt like old times. We've also grown closer I think, we've had to reevaluate our friendship and how we've both changed and I think we've grown to a deeper understanding than we were at before if that makes sense?

I also wrote my first fanfiction outside of supernatural, for wrestling of all things! I find that to be significant since I haven't wanted to really write in a long time. I'm trying to be more dilligent online though, I'm reading more and trying to move all my stories over to A03 and that's taking some time. I spend a good chunk of my time on Reddit for wrestling which has sort of overtaken Supernatural/Tumblr/Livejournal entirely but I always find a time to come back here.

So what's up with all of you?
cherry916: ([J2] Mine!)
Title: 10 Things I Like About Jared (AKA 10 Ways to Fall in Love With Jared)
Artist: [livejournal.com profile] blondebitz
Art: HERE
Genre/Pairing: RPS AU, Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Author's Note: This was written for the [livejournal.com profile] spn_reversebang. I am very happy with how this story has turned out despite how hard it was to complete. I worked with an amazing artist in Blonde and her artwork is absolutely gorgeous and stunning! Please click on the link and go view and comment on how amazing of a job she did. I wasn't the easiest person to work with due to how late I had completed the story and I am forever grateful and how kind she was to me throughout it all and how patient. Thank you so much, I loved working with you and maybe we can collaborate in the future.

A03 Link in the title.

Summary: Throughout the course of filming a movie Jensen meets and falls in love with Jared and learns a thing or two about myself.

10 Things I Like About Jared



Story Under Cut )
cherry916: ([Christmas])
Wishing you and you're family a very Merry Christmas.

cherry916: ([J2] la con hugs)
The Christmas cards will be getting sent out in about 1 week's time so I am asking anyone again that if they want a card from me to give me their address whether PM or through my email. If you have recieved a card from me before it is likely I still have you on my list to resend a card to you. (I resend cards annually to friends). If you have moved or changed your address and I have sent you a card in the past it would be helpful to give me your new address!

Hope everyone has a good day!
cherry916: ([Wrestling] Body Shoot)
Hey all, it is almost that time to start sending out Christmas Cards again.

If you have recieved one from me last year you will this year as well. I have a list of addresses I automatically send cards too. If you would like to recieve a card from me feel free to send me a PM with your address and I will send you a Christmas Card this year.
cherry916: ([Misc.] to do list)
There has been a small update to the PDF library in the SPN GEN section. Head on over to Part Two to check out which new story has been added.
cherry916: ([Wrestling] Smile)
I just wanted to make a blanket post thanking you all for the support I have recieved recently. If you didn't read my other post I am talking about the loss of my mother. It's been a rough few weeks but I am definitely better than what I was yesterday and the day before that and I sort of have to keep telling myself that I'll continue to be better than the day previously. We recently recieved her ashes and the death certificate so it sort of feels like...final now? I guess there is no other way to describe it.

So thanks for all the messages and comments and I'm truly sorry if I didn't respond back. I wasn't sure I could so I wanted to make a universal thank you!

giphy
cherry916: ([N3] Pi)
I'm not exactly sure how to put this into words since I can't even understand myself right now. I figured that maybe writing out some of my feelings will benefit me in the long run because it is going to be a struggle for me for awhile so don't be surprised if I don't show up or go on hiatus from online.

Early this morning my mother, who was only 58 years old passed away. To give you an idea I am currently 23 and I still lived at home with her.

Warning for depression and suicidal thoughts and talks about death )

Stay Safe!

Sep. 1st, 2016 03:52 pm
cherry916: ([Sam] bruised)
Everyone located near the big bend of Florida stay safe our tropical storm has just been upgraded to a category 1 hurricane and may get even higher! We are getting hit right now with onslaughts of non-stop rain. Pasco, Pinellas and Hillsborough has essentially been flooded. We won't know the true effects till later tonight early tommorow morning since that is when it will hit. Our schools were closed today and may likely be closed tommorow as well. Thankfully I am not near the eye of the storm but we are still close enough to get hit with huge storm surges, rain and wind, we were under tornado warning for awhile. So if you live in Florida on the coast please stay safe and take caution.

Fun fact: This will be the first Hurricane to make landfall in Florida since hurricane Wilma in 2005!

Reflection

Aug. 26th, 2016 10:58 pm
cherry916: ([Sam'n'Dean] savior)
I just went to my seminar for my second internship yesterday. It was an all day affair of course and boring. I had to drive an hour and 40 minutes in horrible traffic down the express way to get to St. Pete. I was in a minor accident, thankfully nothing worth stoping over I just got a tiny paint transfer on the bumper due to a jackass pulling in front of me when we are all going 70 on the express way!!!!, anywho this was also a poignant time for me because last time I attempted the internship I sort of fell apart from the inside.

I completed my first internship sucessfully. It was k-5 and I was in a second grade classroom and I loved the school, my kids and my cooperating teacher we got along great and had chemistry and I was stoked for my second one which is 6-12 so middle or high and ESE. I got a highschool ESE class and after maybe two weeks in it became a chore to go in. I didn't think the teacher I was paired with was a good teacher, I hated the paraprofessionals working in the classroom and I HATED my supervisor who was brand new to the program and didn't know what the hell to do wouldn't even attempt to come to seminars for us to talk to her because she lives far away! I live farther than she did to St. Pete.

Anyway, I would say this is when my anxiety really began win. I was constantly on a battle with my anxiety and trying to just STOP with everything but its an illness unfortunately and not normal jitters or being nervous its something I began to have all the time and it took me getting together with my boyfriend to admit that yes I do have a problem and this is absolutely not normal behavior to have. I used to dread for Wednesday to come around because then I would have to go back to that school and pretend that I wasn't dying inside and working with kids, whom I loved, but knew that my attempts didn't matter. It didn't help that my supervisor was always constantly on me, criticized me for everything and was basically against me working and going to school. I was told that it was an excuse and it shows that I am not commited to my schooling when I had to leave early one day to go into work. After that I sort of just gave up. I had a panic attack after a phone call to her where she told me these things and had a trip to the hospital because I wasn't calming down and my blood pressure was through the roof.

This was last Spring around March. I was halfway done with the internship too and I had 3 other classes I was attending and I had a moment of ephiphany where I decided that I can't keep doing this to myself. I had NEVER in my life ever dropped a class. I was always dead set focused on finishing school in the shortest amount of time. This fall I was supposed to be in my last internship than graduate but I took a step back and decided that I am not getting anything out of this experience but pain, it was causing me to reconsider my career choice and second guess my ability to do this.

Which, FUCK THAT. I'm sorry but NO person of higher statue that is a TEACHER no less should EVER make a student feel like that ever. I am not one to belittle people or call people names but she is a bitch and I will 100% stand by my word on that for what she did.

However, I have to thank her because without that I don't think I would have really begun to think of myself first. I dropped out of the class, finished my other ones and took a break until now where I am attempting to do it again this time with new everything and a better mindset going into it. I am a lot more confident in what I do and that I am going to do even better than my first one.

Sorry about this reflective post I was just thinking about how far I've come and wanted to really write it out. I promise I will do more fandom related posts for sure.

Let me ask you guys this though,

[Poll #2052614]

Howdy Ho!

Aug. 25th, 2016 01:44 am
cherry916: ([Wrestling] Body Shoot)
It's been a LONG time since I've made a new post huh? I can sit here and tell you that life has been busy yadda yadda yadda same old shit just another day.

I promised to update you all about me and my medical condition? issues? I don't know what to call the clusterfuck anymore! I figured what better time than at 1:30 in the morning, with a migraine and having to get up at 5:00 AM to drive 2 hours to a seminar for school! Rad!

Okay, well let's start that I went to see a neurosurgeon in Tampa for the cyst on my pineal gland. He was going to give me his opinion on what to do next. Basically I was told to wait and monitor it some more because the surgery is VERY involved and they don't want to do anything until I start presenting symptoms of hydrocephalus. Which I know UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH central. I don't want to wait until shit hits the fan I want to be proactive. I also wanted to see if the removal would lesson my migraines but I have to follow doctors orders which means more MRI's in my future. He wants me to visit a headache specialist so we'll see where that goes.

The good news is that I finally have recieved diability for my migraines in regards to school. I did that a few semesters back not even believing I could recieve disability services but migraines are a disability under the law SO I am taking what I can get. It is just for leniancy with absences I never know when I will have one and I don't want to be penalized for things that I can't control is the main thing.

I am still writing, I have already finished my [livejournal.com profile] spn_summergen story just waiting for it to be posted. Still reading a lot but I recently got back into wrestling (I used to watch it religiously for about 8 years straight and sort of got burnt out around 2010-2011 so I quit before joining the world of online so now everyone on my tumblr has to suffer as I post wrestling shit and I may make you all suffer too! It is definitely something else reading a threesome of hot, sweaty, muscular men gotta say WAAAAAAAAY different than J2 or SPN.)

And I don't know if Kim is cool with me announcing this but me and her MAY or MAY NOT be attending the convention in Jacksonville next year (don't forget I live in Florida broskis!)

And that's about it with me hopefully you all have been doing well and I miss everyone of you dearly. Don't be afraid to send me messages if you want to chat I am normally checking my stuff once daily. love ya!
cherry916: ([Sam'n'Dean] comfortable)
Here to inform you all I have added two new stories for SPN and one in J2 at my PDF Library!
cherry916: ([J2] close up)
Hey, so I don't know if I told anyone yet but as a project for class (which is for teaching students about writing). Basically we had to write a book ourselves and go through the writing process which entails editing, revising, brainstorming etc.

So basically I choose to write a persuassive about why you should watch supernatural. For anyone curious I'll post the book under the cut. It got rather personal for me talking about the friends and benefits from watching so that was difficult to get through.

So what I was asking if someone could possibly make a cover for my book? I have to read this in front of the class and want to sort of 'showcase' if you will the fanart and artists I talk about in the book.

If anyone is willing to or able I would appreciate it. Thank you :D

Thanks

Jul. 3rd, 2016 01:06 pm
cherry916: ([J2] close up)
I want to send out a sincere thank you for those who wished me a happy birthday a few days ago! It really meant a lot considering that birthday was sort of the worst ones I ever had for personal reasons. I've been dealing with bouts of depression that has really affected my relationship with my boyfriend as well as my family and my schooling. So it was really great to see some still cared, because sometimes it feels like no one really does but that made me quite happy <3

Other than dealing with that I just finished a book that I had to re-check out twice since I couldn't finish it the last time so that left me feeling very accomplished. I went to books a million yesterday and purchased two new books as well as an adult coloring book. I'm hoing to rekindle a love for more of my hobbies to attempt to help with the depression.

Other than that I have like 5 tabs open for stories to read from [livejournal.com profile] spn_j2_bigbang and [livejournal.com profile] spn_meanttobe! In other words I have A LOT of reading to do.

Recs will come if anyone is interested from my reading adventure.

Here's your first rec from my reading:

Sunday, Maybe Monday by [livejournal.com profile] alexisjane (Big Bang 2016)
Summary: Jensen is a short order cook. He works, he sleeps – it's enough. Then one day, Jensen notices Jared.

I normally don't do huge age difference in fics but I'm so glad I decided to try and read this! I just love the simplicity of the story it really breathes life into the crazy, plot driven fics that we normally get, and produces something that is more organize and really makes you feel the emotions and the relationship. 
cherry916: ([Misc.] it's been a very stressful day)
Hey all I participated in spn_summergen again and I am looking for a beta. It is gen and it is not complete yet but I am looking for someone to beta/give feedback. I only imagine the story should be about 3-4K. Anyone interested can reply here or simply message me at my email. Thanks!

Update

Jun. 16th, 2016 12:05 am
cherry916: ([J2] chicon)
Well, I don’t know if anyone remembers a little bit ago I made a post talking about the discovery of a cyst on my pineal gland. I was having MRI’s done to see if it was something I needed to remove. I just had my 6 month follow up MRI and it was noted it has grown more. I am almost at 2 centimeters and that is the cut off point for cysts because it will start causing symptoms related to the eye. The cyst is close to blocking a tube that allows fluids for the eye to flow. Pineal cysts are actually very common however large ones like I have are not as common and are often removed. My neurologist said I have a lot of extra room around in there which is likely why I haven’t developed symptoms yet but he referred me to a neurosurgeon for USF anyway because he is certain I am going to need it removed. The consultation is on the 18th of July and I (hopefully) expect the surgery will follow soon because I don’t want it to effect my school schedule. I imagine I’ll be in the hospital for a week and recovery should be about a month.

Thankfully they don’t do a craniotomy anymore. They remove a small portion of skull near the back of the neck and remove it by popping it, sucking out the pus and then removing the skin. The pineal gland is located in the middle of the brain near the back if anyone is curious. I am hoping this will lesson the migraines I have been having as I have been burdened with them since childhood. I have read a lot of stories from others who have had theirs removed as well and they said that it helped so that is really the number one reason I am ready for the surgery. I will update you all on any further progress.

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